The Backup Plan.

As time passes by and you get older

as people turn and look, care for you, and try to pry into your life

just remember to keep a wall around so that in case things crop up, you have something to back you up and to keep everything out of harm's way.
Better safe than sorry, right?

Me Love #1.

Title :

When I grow up, I shall get wings for myself so that I can soar high above the ground.

I wanna soar so high that when I reach the top of the clouds and look around, all that I see are stars and more stars.

Though sometimes I wonder what it really is like way up there...

Most of the time I spend wishing stars could rain on me.

If I could have a room of my own design, I'd want it to have stars hanging from the top of my bed so that they watch over me every night when I sleep.

As for the ones I have with me now, they might not look like real ones but I cherish them all the same. For they are one of the few things that have always stayed on the top of my 'favourite things' list, and there they shall stay for a long time. =]

Short and Simple.

There isn't much I feel like writing right now and moreover them muggings are causing me to stay up late and all. So I figured getting one or two icons could make a new post.

Short announcements :-

Dad's decided to go on a diet for this coming week. His birthday's wednesday and he says he's sticking to the diet even on that day. woot! Oh and we had Kim Gary's(the cs branch) for dinner yesterday. {Envy Me. Mwahahahaha!}

Oh and Uncle Wong, one of my closest uncles, took a fall at home and apparently his blood oozed like a fountain from the right side of his head. Get well soon Uncle Wong!

And the choir did exceptionally well for being so unfocused before our performance on Friday. Good job y'all! [Thanks much to Cal, Adeline and Sarah W. Cinta lu tiga banyak banyak! C'= ]

And we went visiting our late relatives today because of the upcoming all souls' day on 31st October. Also Dad's birthday. During my exam week. Whoa. X/

Back to the icons. =)

This is one doing a drum roll. [Lookie here Joel!]

And I just found this really cute.

Question : Why do roses melt girls'(majority) hearts? =]


Tag replies here!
Julia, went to your blog already. I can't believe Cal has a friggin grand piano! Unfair. And me no emomo. At least, I'll try not to be anymore. You do well for your muggings ya! =)
Bryan, thanks fantastico. what's with the boink again?? Lol.
Von, Daddy's birthday coming! We celebrating on tuesday night most probably, coming?
Dog shyt/crap, erm... could I have your name please?
Cal, thanks girl. We did a lot better than the one before. Good job and we won't let that old bat get us down! She can blame us and nag all she wants. x) *huggla*
Bryan(AGAIN), ask nat, what bomb larh?! tiba tiba, so random sia... xD

In My Place.

It's true. You're my teddy but sometimes I just feel as though you'd rather be someplace else than with me. Still, you're all I've got.

But just for now, everything's just crashing down on me. It's turning dark with the clouds and all.
Please, come already.

Flash of the Past.

I have to tell you something, although I've been keeping quiet all this while.

It has always seemed as though the rain fell only on me when you weren't there anymore.

See, what I'm trying to say is :
I might not have been the person you needed for the time you were still around, but you are the person I need and think about almost everyday nowadays.

But just out of fear of getting hurt, I'll just lock myself up and keep the key in a safe place. So that as long as I don't open up, I won't be able to get hurt by the new people who want so badly to get in.

Can you hear me?
Can you read me from up there?
Can you see what I don't show everyone around me that is happening inside of me?
Because I really do miss you heaps for a sister, Lorraine.
Save me a place in Heaven, would you?

Cheers. To Our Future.

Every time you look into a mirror, what do you see?
Or rather, what do you want to see instead of that 'awful me' you dislike so much? Let's face it.
The world asks so much of each and every one of us now that it even hurts some to look at themselves.

Remember when we as children ran around everywhere while our mothers did their grocery shopping?
Remember when we as children were nagged at to finish our food?
Remember when we as children were grounded from the tv or computer or any other form of entertainment due to overusage of those devices?
Remember when we as children used to love snuggling up to our parents' arms for warmth just before being tucked into bed?

News flash.
It isn't the case anymore.
Children are getting abducted just by a mere 20 minutes or so if they stray away from their parents' just for a second.
Children are actually starving as a result of some parents who put themselves before their children.
Children are turning to other ways of satisfying their hunger for entertainment or just about anything to fill their free time, that some turn to the bad kind.
Children are the ones turning down their parents' love nowadays, thinking in mind that parents never will understand how they're feeling on the inside.
We are so blinded by our wants and do's and dont's that sometimes, others don't matter anymore. Not just a little bit, but not a single drop of care for another person.

What awaits regarding the futures of the children of today you ask?
Well, even I dare not think of it, but one thing's for sure.
There will always be those who feel empty on the inside, no matter how good or bad an environment one could be found in.
It's up to us to make a better future for ourselves.
To start making things better so as to have an appropriate and awesome place before moving on to the ultimate place called Heaven.

Movie Day. =D

I watched Romeo+Juliet today. And after that I was feeling poetic and going 'Wherefore art thou O ...' to some I met online. T'was great fun. One of my favourite lines was from Romeo's mother. She went,
'Thou shalt stir no foot to seek a foe.'

I liked that line very much. She said that to Romeo's father when he was asking for his gun otherwise known as his 'long sword' for its length because the Montagues(Romeo's family) and the Capulets(Juliet's family) just had another gunfight at a petrol station. Goes to show that she didn't want to stir up trouble for either side.

The chief police's name was 'Captain Prince'. It totally got me thinking about my last dog who went missing late December last year, his name was prince too. And not to be racial and all here, but both of them were blacks. =X

Overall it was interesting listening to a screenplay done in Shakespeare's language and all that poetic feel of it. I absolutely love the music of the whole movie. The way they had the music intervals and the songs from 'lovefool' to the theme song, 'kissing you'. This would be my 5th time watching this movie and I still love it so very much. Thumbs' up to Shakespeare and director of the movie, Baz Luhrmann. Fabulous work, a job well done!

Another movie that made up another day. =)

Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head,

I miss you.

And then there were 4.

Watch. You wait. I'm gonna plan something so chun-ted you're gonna drop dead out of shock.
Okay, that was random but for some reason. Hee. Some of you should know. (x

Today, I had lunch with Leroy and Joel.
And I'm supposed to blog about the gentlemanly-ness of Joel who paid for my lunch at vivo's today.
You see, we were in the middle of writing down our order when Leroy left to make a call.
So I quickly wrapped everything up and headed to the counter to foot the bill, leaving poor Joel looking like a lil' lost kid who was deserted by adults.
After I got back with their drinks, none of them realized I'd paid. Was quite amusing to watch them not see something so obvious.
Then when Joel found out, the both of them tried so very hard to return me the RM50 I came out with for lunch. That was when when gruesome parts came in that even made Joel lose his appetite. Imagine that. Hee.
So came our garlic bread, I went to get the cutlery and all.
Oh and did I mention Leroy can be such an arse sometimes? x) It's the things he say that can really make you scream and all.
Fyi, he said I'd make a good housewife. That dong. Sheesh.
Anyways, the pizza arrived soon after and we started indulging.
The pizza was awesome stuff. The chats were amusing to be involved in. So overall, it was
AN ENTERTAINING LUNCH FILLED WITH A PIZZA AND TWO DONGS. =D

Leroy was doing his thing, talking crap and eating and making calls. A very busy business man, he is.
Joel, was being Joel, and it didn't really help with him sitting opposite Leroy(who was on my right) and speaking ever so softly as though he didn't have much breath.
The duo were entertaining and funny, so lunch was quite enjoyable I must say. They even raced by daytona once. Interesting. *Joel jangan kembang eh. xD*
Leroy left for something else although his tuition was canceled, so Joel did some shopping with me for a bit till we headed back for home at 5pm. We went into Sinma where he went to emo one corner and then to McD to indulge their you'll-never-ever-get-sick-of-it cone sundaes. Oh and I found out I broke the bracelet WenLi gave me as a present for our anniversary as godsisters. *emo.* Thanks for the day guys! (:

One last thing, I got a new dog. AGAIN.
Isn't she adorable? That's Cappucino under our couch in the living room. Her tongue's so long she can't stick the whole thing in her mouth so a short part of it hangs loose just alil from her mouth. So now, I have Mocha, Latte, Expresso AND Cappucino! Weeeeeeeeeet. =D

p/s : My house, is now, a ZOO. *bite =B*
p/p/s: Happy 1 year 5 months WenLi mei. (:
p/p/p/s : Joel tengah kembang about his daytona skills.

Papercuts&Blisters©. [ For you I will.® ] { I Will Bite Your Head Off. =B } says:
anything to add in?
Joel says:
joel owned in daytona !

It Isn't Clear Anymore.

Ever wondered how much courage it'd take to do a bungee-jump?
Now take that amount of courage and add in a wee bit of determination and what do you get?

Courage + Determination = A stubborn mule.

If you've ever taken time off to observe, there are:
*people who doubt themselves all the time
*people who sometimes harbour thoughts of doubt but yet they still do find time to reaffirm themselves and try to do better
*people who think they're right all the time <-( the stubborn mules ) Now let's think for a bit. Which one of the 3 categories above do you belong in? The category where we keep doubting our abilities, our talents, our personality, our outside looks or even our inner thoughts? Do we belong in the group where we think so highly of ourselves that, since I am this and I am that, so what if other people say or give me what little meaningful feedbacks, when I can just shove them all away by one little ignorant hand? Or rather, are we those who know when to keep it balanced, where we doubt ourselves in things we lack of confidence in but know when to provide affirmations not only for ourselves but for the benefit of others as well? I'd like to think i'm a mixture of the doubtful type and the type that knows how to juggle the affirmations and doubts along the way.
It's the things I do that determine how I look at myself, how i bring myself about, how I deal with situations that crop up all of a sudden.

Which category do I belong to for the time being then?

I feel a lot of doubt regarding myself, I feel as though I haven't done enough yet.
I feel a huge massive blob of confusion over my head and seriously speaking, I'm scared.
I feel like all of a sudden everything doesn't seem to be just itself, as though there's more to it than meets the eye.
I feel as though things are going so fast that I find that I can't keep up with my normal pace anymore.


If I seem a lil' down, please do forgive me. For I just don't have the heart for harbouring thoughts that usually make me jump around and bounce about for the time being.
To all who have shown their concern, I appreciate it a whole bunch from the bottom of my heart and I love you guys for caring.
We'll all make it someday, somehow. That, I can gurantee.

p/s : Happy Birthday my dear late Grandmama.

Time Will Tell.

When things don't go the way you want them to, learn to take them aside and deal with them before moving on.
It doesn't exactly help if you delay the 'dealing with it' part because very often it just makes things worse.
Things cropped up this week and there are some that I've dealt with already and a small one to be dealt with when school reopens.
And yet, I cannot help but feel the sudden change in me after having dealt with these ongoing issues.
It is frightening when you look at it from your own point of view, even though everyone around you is telling you it doesn't matter, everything's fine.

I'm sorry that I've ended things this way, but I really couldn't take any more from you.
I'm sorry that I'm going to end things my way, because you're really creeping me out a whole lot.
I'm sorry that I tire of negative humour so easily, that it seems I am one petty fellow.
I'm sorry I lost your fight, I didn't try my hardest.
I'm sorry I lashed out at you, even when you were trying to deal with what happened to you during the day.
I'm sorry that my dad lashed out at you both, even when you clearly stated which direction and turnings he was supposed to turn into.
I'm sorry that I've neglected your feelings, even though you never fail to watch out for me.
I'm sorry things turned out this way, we may never be friends again but I wish you luck. For you have tired me with all your nonsensical self-pity. I'm sorry if I did hurt you.


p/s : The mamak session I just had with Fann, Cal, Eu Chuan and Zeke was fun. It helped bring my spirits up. At least, for a lil while. Thanks guys and sorry about my dad. He was having one of those times. You guys understand. =X

Daddy's Theory.

Just the other day, I was in the garden with my mum and dad, me and mum enjoying our ice cream while daddy took a puff after dinner.
It was still quite bright, the sun hadn't set yet.
As you very well know, the weather's been horribly heaty and dry and all.
Even after taking a bath, before you can put all your clothes on, you're soaked with sweat once more.
There was a slight breeze and boy, was it nice having ice cream with a slight breeze to end another hot day.
But daddy made up another plan to make up for not having some ice cream.
He raised both his hands up high and posed.
It was quite a sight, having your dad stand in the middle of the garden with his hands in the air.
Moreover, you know how our dads hate wearing tops at home. It disturbs the hell out of them.

So I questioned him, ' Pa, what're you up to?! '.
You'll never believe what he said.


' Hot day la! Must air my armpit a while... ' O_o'''

Thought of the day.

What if it really rained cats and dogs...?? :T

Boredom + Internet Connection.

Boredom leads to drastic measures. Well, in my case that is. Bear with me, will you? x)

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Your Japanese Name Is...

Satoko Kimura

What's your Japanese Name?

interesting...

Your Russian Name Is...

Fayina Thedya Popov

What's Your Russian Name?

Popov?! O_o

Your Old Fashioned Name Is...

Agnes Kesteven

What's Your Old Fashioned Name?

But that's my buddy's name!

You Should Play the Guitar

You're very independent - both in spirit and in the way you learn. You can teach yourself almost anything, even if it makes your fingers bleed. You're not really the type to sit patiently through a music lesson - or do things by the book. It's more your style to master the fundamentals and see where they take you. Highly creative and a bit eclectic, you need a wide range of music to play. You could emerge as a sensitive songwriter... or a manic rock star. Your dominant personality characteristic: being rebellious Your secondary personality characteristic: tenacity

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?
Guitar.. Me like! (:

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

But but but... I don't even like purple very much! ):

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack, I've been too long, I'm glad to be back" Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos. But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

What's Your Theme Song?

Never heard of it before..

Your English Skills:

Punctuation: 80% Grammar: 40% Spelling: 40% Vocabulary: 20%

Does Your English Cut the Mustard?

Joel, right in your face! I'm not even that good in English! xD

Your Inner Muse is Urania

You are most like this muse of astronomy. Your head is in the stars, and you look to the future. You give off a heavenly, mysterious vibe. And you're not too bad at predicting the future.

What Muse Are You?

I don't really care what kind of muse I am, but i do care about the band named MUSE though.. =D

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By the end of everything, I lost quite a number of evaluations I got from blogthings cause I accidentally backspaced them away.. Boohoo! Guess I'll save them up for next time. A thousand apologies for consuming your time, y'all. (:

For A Girl I Treasure.

Here's to a girl who spent my birthday with me along with Sin Ying when we were still immature kids running around everywhere in form 1, who never failed to keep the spirits of the people around her up, who never gave up on her house as a vice-captain when our captain faltered, who tried so very hard to keep her face straight even to the last second.


Here's to one of my most treasured friends I've ever had throughout my nearing 16 years of life.
My heart goes out to you and your family, Vivian.


It doesn't mean your dad has disappeared from the face of this earth, he lives on in our hearts.
And believe me, he'd be one proud father seeing you guys grow up and staying as a family and forming new ones too. I'm sure of it.




tag replies:
joel - you've got nothing to say huh? xD don't gimme gold anymore la. no need to return.
von - fuyooo can feel the cold wind wei... scary shyt. come back soon come back soon!
crystal - hello singapore sister school friend! you've been linked.
bryan - thanks bryan. really appreciate the nonsensical reply you gave that person.
april - amah!! you're linked. hieeeeeeeeee. (:
darren - someone came down from selangor last weekend... wonder who.. xD
cal - glad you're over that period of doubt. we'll stand up for each other from time to time!
euchuan - they all really no life seh. xD you sound like how mercy talks to joel. no life no life! thanks euchuan
and cal! you both the best couple i've ever met! (x