Ohana = Family.

Ever since I was a lil' kid, Mum & Dad seldom spoke nicely to each other. Once in a while, we'd get together and have a good laugh at whatever topic we talk about at that moment.

When things get down and dirty, guess what me and my sisters would do.

This. We would shut them out by looking as though we were bored. And we were bored.

But at the end of the day, they'd always get back to normal. And then returns peace again.

This, is what I call my Home. =)

Tags.

From my buddy, Agnes & my sister, Von.

Each player of this game starts off with TEN weird habits or little known things about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own TEN weird or little known facts about yourself as well as state this rules clearly. At the end, you must choose 6 people to tag and list their names. NO TAG BACKS.
1. I have this problem. I keep telling people I'm fat. And that's cause I am fat you see. So there.
2. I eat milo powder on it's own. It tastes really nice with bread too!
3. I make a cup of milo without stirring it thoroughly, then I consume all the lumps of unstirred powder, and then I place the whole cup in the freezer and then after a few days I take it out and start poking my fork into it to 'break the ice'.
4. I like having long nails. Cause I'm too lazy to cut 'em.
5. I have massive mood swings with different people throughout different times of different days.
6. I prefer oldies cause they tend to be more meaningful than the genres nowadays.
7. I like sleeping with my lights on. I don't really like the dark. But I deal with it.
8. I get emo but I go high again without any particular reason. It's something I was born with.
9. I read a whole lot. But not the specified type of books I should be reading.
10. I've held onto something a lot of people have told me to give up hope upon, and till the day comes when it comes back to normal, I'll keep praying and hoping.




The 30 Sentence MEME Tag 3 people to do the MEME when completed.

1. My ex is: null. never had one.
   
2. I am listening to: Run by snow patrol.
   
3. Maybe i should: stop thinking so much.
   
4. I love: thinking.
   
5. My best friend: is one who confides and relies on me.
   
6. I don't understand: why E=MC2.
   
7. I lose: control of my thoughts running through my head sometimes.
   
8. People say: silly things at wrong moments.
   
9. The meaning for my screen name is: go figure. even i don't know.
   
10. Love is: two hearts joined together.
    
11. there's no number11.. sorry.. <--- oookkkaaayyyy.
12. I will always: breathe?
    
13. Forever: is us.
    
14. I never want to: go bungee-jumping.
    
15. My cell phone is: ANCIENT.
    
16. When i wake up in the morning: i put on my glasses?
    
17. I get annoyed at: people who aren't honest.
    
18. Parties are: a bunch of people trying to fit in.
    
19. My 3 dogdogs isare: Mocha, Latte and Expresso.
    
20. Kisses are wrong when: you don't mean them?
    
21. Today i am: bored from school.
    
22. Tonight i will: tuck myself into bed?
    
23. Tomorrow i will: be home the whole day.
    
24. I really want: a golden retriever.
    
25. When i looked at myself in the mirror today, i: thought 'FAT ALERT'.
    
26. I will drive my car: when I get my license.
    
27. A word that rhymes with "Park" is: dark.
    
28. Bright or Dark Room?: Bright please.
    
29. If i'm alone in a room with 2 beds, i: put some stuff on the one bed and sleep in the other.
    
30. The last thing i said to someone was: I'm fasting cause aku kegemukan.

I tag no one. I end it all. All was well.

~

Here's a lil something before I go.

=')

Reach out, and just hope that that special someone gets to hold onto you.
I wish you both the very best. Don't make me regret letting you go.
I'm not really letting go, just letting you have some space.
We're still on. We'll stay the same. Won't we?
And you, take good care of her.
Seriously, yes you.
I'll miss you.
=')

Thought Of The Day.

Why are examiners(musical) so intimidating?

Stay Over #1.

I. ABSOLUTELY. LOVE. STAY OVERS.
need i say more? =)

Thoughts of Mine.

You think of things your way and I'll think of it mine.


If you think for one second that I've ever hated you, then have it your way.
If you think for one second that I've never taken notice of how much you've provided me with, during weekends and all those things I wanted but mum&dad wouldn't get for me, then you're wrong.
If you think for one second that I don't miss her as much as you do, then you're friggin out of your mind.
If you think for one second that every time you want the computer I have to let it to you but only in my own time, then maybe you're right.



But if you really think for one second in my shoes, maybe you'd think of you.

Weet.

Okay wait. First things first.

HAPPY BELATED 16th JACKSON aka Jack Jack aka J K!!!!
you're old. *poke* =D

Now that that's done, let me proceed.


Things are coming back to where they first were again, but it never stays like that for long.
It's been hectic dealing from one problem to another hassle, and although it's been forever since I've gone to bed no later than 10pm, I guess I've managed just fine. *grins*
Hurray for me. Cheer for me.
Cause sometimes you don't know just how far encouragement can help to push one on.
Just a simple smile would do.

I used to know how you ticked, how you'd feel if this happened, or what you'd do if that came up.
After just a short while, I find that a really huge gap is coming between us two and I can no longer read you like the open book I used to know inside out.
Looking back at the times we had, yes, we had tiffs and disagreements.
Looking at how things are now, truthfully, I would rather we go through the quarrels and fights all over again.
I miss hanging with you, and mostly just speaking our minds about anything and everything that came to mind like we did.


Three words, I MISS YOU.

There are times when you feel like any other person feels normally.
There are times when you look in the mirror and see a person who smiles right back at you.
There are times when you watch as the rain fall and wet the ground and you wonder when you'll be able to go outdoors to play.
There are times when you are high, when you never think of all the bad stuff happening around you.


There are times when you cry too, when you're almost nearing to giving up.
There are times when you look in the mirror and what you see is really a mask you're dying to take off.
There are times when you watch as the rain fall and just dash out into the rain and just stand in the middle of nowhere under the falling rain.
There are times when you're down, when you think of every possible trouble you're currently dealing with.


Then there are times when you're fuming, when you lash out at others.
There are times when you look in the mirror and see a really murderous face staring right back at you.
There are times when you watch the rain fall and you run out under the rain only to splash in all the puddles in sight.
There are times when you're furious, when you feel like punching the wall or any other way of inflicting pain unto something or someone, even if it were to be yourself.


All these times, which I often have daily, make me who I am.
And until I learn how to choose not to be affected by all this madness in this insane world,
I shall be me for now.
Not who I am, not who I appear to be, but just good old ME.


p/s : I choose not to be angry. I refuse to give in to the negativity of it all. I choose to be tolerant. Are you proud of me?

I attended English College's 13th International Understanding Day today.
It was held at MAWAR and was supposed to start at 12pm.
I got there fashionably late at around 1.15pm but guess what?

Everyone was late.

And when I saytype everyone, I mean EVERYONE.

The VIPs arrived almost nearing to 2pm, and I almost cried cause I had to leave by 3pm for youth mass practice in church.
Thank God I got to eat the food, cause it really was quite good. =D
Anyways, when I reached there I was greeted by Phoebe and Hui Juen, my two fellow classmates.
They've been so anxious about the event since God-remembers-when.
And being non-interactors, they've been pestering me about nearly EVERYTHING on the event.
Then popped Julian & Eu Chuan from the gents. Said hi and chatted for a bit.
So came Mr. Spiderman.
He came over and started singing, 'Now and forever~~~ I will be your man~~~....'.
And I nudged Julian and asked, 'Dude, who's in the suit?'
I swear, seriously, Spiderman sorta dropped his hands(they were out-stretched) and I felt a air of disappointment.
'It's Bryan. Bryan Yong you know?' went Julian as he took off with Eu Chuan, leaving me and Spiderman standing there and then.
I felt bad, seriously.
But how was I supposed to know who he was under the suit with the mask on and all?!!
So I apologized and fled. xD

Into the toilet I went and found Kim C & Vhino in there getting all ready for the event cause they came straight from school!
They looked awesome. Seriously. Stunning. Jaw-dropping.
And then I took a look at myself and died. xD
Anyways, waited for Julia and Yi Th'ng. Babes again.
So I went in with Vhino cause Kim wanted to wait for Fann with the two girls.

I have to say, it was really interesting to see everyone our age all dressed up and trying to look good.
The girls were eye-catchingwell,most of them, all stunning in their OWN way.
The guys looked really smart too. All suited up with ties&coats and all.
Overall, performances I watched were great. Food was great too. Loved the chicken. xD
[Oh, I left before the form 4 sketch so I don't know what happened after. Hee.]

Before I left, Graeme walked me out so I guess it wasn't really that awkward to wait alone outside for dear Mumsy who was late. Hee. Thanks Graeme!


p/s:Oh and did I mention I got a flower from Suba? She's a girl by the way. =D

All's god-given, all will be forgiven.


The most shocking menocking thing I've uttered all through this week.
I'm sorry if I sound a wee bit too full of myself.
But I actually shocked myself after they were uttered out of my mouth. xD


Dancing, is a very tiring thing to do.
Especially if you have dance practices every single weekday of the week.
And not forgetting the dance choreographer you've gotten specially for an upcoming event.
Add it all together and you'll get one hell of a tired group of form 4s dancing as though they would kill to get away from the practice itself.


For the amount of effort we've inserted into this item, seriously speaking, it's better be real GOOD.
I'm serious here, thanks to Vivian, I've been holding out for quite some time now.
Sure there are burns here and there, sparks flying everywhere, but hey, I mean it's normal.

Right?

No, seriously. Right??

Whatever.

I made someone cry today. I really didn't mean it. Not at all.
The kid was crying her heart out after I walked away from her looking all pissed.
And I was pissed not because of her. That was the thing you see. Wrong impression.



Dearest Jenny, I really wasn't and am not angry with you. Believe you me, if I were, you'd be crying non-stop and I wouldn't have even bothered to go comfort you. I feel really angry at myself for making you cry, just because of my ignorance. I know it hurt you, I really didn't mean it. You understand right? I explained it to you, I think. So, forgive me will you? =T


Long weekend ahead, I wonder when I'll get to have efficient rest and catch up with what sleep I've fallen behind with already. ='(




To you, the one who is to leave me very soon :
When the night turns to day, when the rose droops and decay,
I'll be holding on to what you say, regardless of everything, come what may.

Fun.

I had a lot of fun this past week.

Sure, it was one bloody tiring week I had, but I guess it was worth all the work.

Pesta permainan was uberly time-consuming as we all expected.
Vivian helped me a whole lot with my softball skills and my self-confidence by correcting me and pushing me further throughout the trainings we had on Monday and Tuesday. Thanks loads, girl!
Pesta Permainan was held on Thursday by the way. =)

Then Friday came where I was supposed to do my duty in school but I accompanied Kimberly Chin somewhere else for some other stuff instead.
We met up with Leroy for practice at first as I was expected to perform for EC's FOA aka Festival Of Arts on Saturday, 4th of August 2007 with him.
Practice was only for a short while cause we did get it over with after a very short while.

Saturday. Was 'THE DAY'.
The day before, Leroy told me to be there by 7am.
I got there at 6.50am and was greeted by unfamiliar faces and impolite grunts of acknowledgement.
As I expected, Leroy arrived at around 7.15am, I think. =D
Settled down and we did some last minute preparations, then we were good to go.
I have to say, I found I did kinda badly and I felt bad after that cause Joel sent me a recording of our duet.
Admit it, I DID go out of tune at some parts. On the other hand, Leroy said we sounded exactly like how it sounds on his ipod. Comforting indeed.
Anyways, we got ranked 3rd after all the votings and scores from the judges.
We were rewarded with a trophy which we decided Leroy should have cause he did all the music and stuff. I only had to go and sing my part.
For that, I sincerely thank Mr Leroy Tan for a job well done on your part. Well done! =)


p/s : I'm sorry that LeVasiz didn't get anything cause we most probably won't be seeing you guys performing anymore after this right? I wish you lot all the best and keep making good music aite?

Single Line Post #1.

Today was a bad day that brought out the best things I've never came to appreciate from the people to the things in school. =)

Thanks a whole lot Vivian. Shan't say no more. Goodnight Mr. Moon.