Freedom

You know that feeling you get when you're through with something? The 'wow-there's-nothing-left-to-do-or-look-forward-to' kind of feeling where you feel like you're flying in midair and headed absolutely nowhere. I guess you could call that a form of freedom. It's funny this feeling, cause some of us were given a large amount of it while others pined for it. But frankly speaking, I'd like to think we're all offered a choice between freedom and going a certain specific way or doing a specific thing. It must be weird for those who are granted freedom all of a sudden after being deprived of it up till now.

"ok, the thought of freedom really makes me go banana's. for instance before SPM, i was dying for freedom because studying was getting to me and i was desperate for a break. but as soon as i got the freedom i wanted, it felt really weird because i didnt know what to do with it. for instance, whenever my parents and i went out for dinner we never really could have a proper conversation. because at the dinner table all they used to ask me about was whether i was studying hard enough for the exams and whether i was prepared. after SPM that all changed. as a family it was hard for us to talk about anything as we ran out of things to talk about."
-a certain friend of mine

Conversations(and a puny bit of advice)

Over lunch
C : "Prawn?" [holds up a prawn with the chopsticks in hand]

S : "No want! Got tail."

C : [proceeds to shred the tail and offers again] "Prawn?"

S : "No want! No tail."

C : [places it onto S's plate anyways]

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Still having lunch
S : "Look at those people!" [points]

H and C : [looks over at the people who've been pointed out]

H : "Hello, this is not Korea."

C : "Or Japan. Or Hong Kong!"

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Excuses to miss PLKN/NS
Compose a letter to whoever it may concern with any of the following content :

• You lie about having some horrible disease or some health problem
• You actually do have some horrible disease or some health problem
• You are going to fall into the drain at camp if you go
• You are going to be attacked by a wild animal while jungle trackingtrekking
• You are going to have a severe cramp in your leg that will last probably for a long long long long long(you get what we mean) time
• Your [insert family member here] will be dead this weekend
• Your [insert family member here] will be hospitalized and you'll need to be there to take care of [whoever you mentioned]
  
• You are allergic to people
  
• Fail your medical test
• Bribe people
• 'Pull strings'
  
• Emigrate to another country

If all else fails and you are left with no other choice, get your butt there and SERVE THY COUNTRY.
warning : If you get into any trouble from taking any advice from me, then you really should be in trouble by listening to me in the first place.

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Thanks for the outing today Joyce, Ceci and Harvey. I had fun with you girls. :D


Taken from "One Tree Hill"
Dan Scott : "You're despicable. You're full of crap."
Coach Durham : "It comes with old age. Constipation!"



"I wanna break the spell you've created."
-Our Time Is Running Out, Muse

Wait for it, coming soon

I hate waiting for things. Or people for any matter. It's like you're stuck at this specific place or period and you kind of get this wave of uncertainty wash over you.

"Will this ever happen?"

"Will that person I'm supposed to meet turn up after all?"

"What time is it already?"

"Maybe I got played."

You know, that sort of thoughts run around in your head and eventually you get a little 'off' with things. As in you'll find it hard to concentrate on things you're supposed to do cause you're too caught up wondering about the 'what if's. I don't know about others, but that's how I get sometimes. I get distracted really easily due to the various thoughts that invade my mind ever so often. I guess this is why I blurt out really random things sometimes. Anyone who's been out with me should have experienced that side of me, I think.


Anyways, I was talking about waiting. Truth is, I don't even know why I brought it up in the first place. Just felt like typing the word, and before I knew anything all these words popped up into my moniter as my fingers typed out these words. Perhaps it came across my mind cause one of my friends are leaving for Australia tomorrow. When I asked her when she was heading back here, she told me she'd be back in the month of July. Perhaps that was what triggered me to think of waiting and stuff. July is a long way from now, though not a very long way at all. Many things would have taken place within the this period. Here's a list I've decided to compile.

Events of My First half of Year 2009
[note :
not all the dates below are fixed,
so don't count on it]

• January : New Year - meaning time to go college hunting, begin having rehearsals in Singapore for French Opera, start attending church on Sundays, Chinese New Year, birthdays
• February : Vigorous rehearsals of French Opera in Singapore, church on Sundays, birthdays, (possibly )entrance exam and audition to be taken within this month in order to enter future college
  
• March : Intensive rehearsals until last 'show' day of French Opera, church on Sundays, collection of SPM results from secondary school, birthdays, if entrance exam and audition hasn't been carried out then will take place by this month
• April-June : Preparation for future college(provided acceptance letter upon passing both entrance exam and audition has been received, I might not get in but who knows? I certainly hope not though), work(?), three months' worth of birthdays

The intake for the course at the college I currently have my eyes on is in the month of July. Oh and it's in Singapore. Seems like it'll be a long wait but I know it'll be over real quick. I really hope I get in though, cause I haven't got a backup plan if I don't. Risky yeah I know, tell me about it. I went for the college's open day today with mumsy and Calista. Mumsy has me registered already so I'm expecting a letter to inform me of my entrance exam and audition dates. Quite a frightening thing, all this stuff. But I guess it's time I should leave my 'nest' too.



Oh and if you're looking for some addictive music to listen to, try The Kills.




"Oh well I woke up tonight and said I
I'm gonna make somebody love me
I'm gonna make somebody love me
And now I know, now I know, now I know
I know that it's you
You're lucky, lucky
You're so lucky!"
-Do You Want To, Franz Ferdinand

Wonder

The moon hangs low on this late night.
We settle under the one familiar tree we always sit under.
There isn't even a cloud around, not one in sight.
What will tomorrow bring and what would bring tomorrow, in silence we wonder.



Where's your picket fence, love?
Oh, there there.
Quit crying your eyes out.

Captions, anyone?

"Look into the mirror,
but what's it got to offer?"
- URA Fever, The Kills

Boogie

Ever get the feeling everything seems as though it's been laid out for you?



As though everything's fixed in place?




Well for me?
All of a sudden I feel as though...





it's me against the world.

In any case, being afraid doesn't help at all.



Time to try new things.



Give it your best shot.



Take a chance,


and let them dices roll.

Babies, let's boogie.

Day, dream

It's the day again.
The day when everyone starts thinking horrible thoughts the night before,
when the procrastinators hurry around looking for their shoelaces.


It's funny though, cause this year I don't get to see familiar faces at those familiar spots of that school we all have grown accustomed to.


Sat at home all day today, while I imagined the day others were having.
Some started college today, some bummed around at home(like me), some are starting a little later, while others did/are going to do stuff I know nothing of.
Me? I got in front of my computer this morning and finished both Princess Diaries' movies on YouTube before it was time for lunch.



Bottomline of what I got done today :

Washed Cino's furry face with shampoo cause she squeezed herself out the grill gate just to catch one puny little disgusting cockroach.

Okay okay. I'll rephrase.

Made maid wash Cino's furry face with shampoo cause she squeezed herself out the grill gate just to catch one puny little disgusting cockroach.

Oh and fyi, my dog smells fine now. Just like how she smelled this morning after her bath. No more cockroach-ish smell coming off her.


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I dreamt a fairly pleasant dream last night, just like the one I had once.
We went to an amusement park and ate cotton candy. Hand in hand, we spent the entire day there. When the sky was turning crimson, we went up a huge ferris wheel and watched the sun go down. Even though I'm afraid of heights, I wasn't in the dream. I didn't even worry about getting fat when you made me eat all that cotton candy. And the cold when we were up in the ferris wheel, didn't bother me at all. Cause you were there.


Funny thing was, I couldn't make out who you were.



11.11
make a wish

A tag & whatnots

1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture right now.
2. Don’t change your clothes, just take a picture.
3. Post that picture with NO editing.
4. Post the picture with these instructions.

That's Becca in the picture. Cute little fart, she is.

Instructions: #Remove one question from below and add in your personal question. #Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 people. #List them out at the end of the post. #Notify them in their cbox that they’ve been tagged.


1.What’s your ambition?
To be a musician.

2. What do u like the most bout your siblings?
They're both girls and when you offend one, you offend all.

3. Are u looking for a boyfriend?
Nah, I'm never gonna get married.

4.Do you think you have enough confidence?
I guess, when I'm with certain people I tend to be more confident.

5.How many babies you want?
Not getting married.

6.Do you wanna play this tag?
Not really, but it's from Ceci!

7.What is your goal for this year(2009)?
Do what I want and be who I want to be.

8.Do you love your everything?
Depends. (note:check your grammar)

9.What’s a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u?(list 10)
Honest, understanding, sweet, has good grammar, doesn't have to be too rich but can't be poor, interesting, humorous, tolerant, musically inclined(preferably) and an awesome individual.

10.Do u ever wonder where you would end up after you die?
All the time actually. I'm not so much a sadist though, only sometimes.

11.What are your bad habits?
I'm very impatient and rude at times. Inconsiderate too.

12. Do you love shopping?
Depends on whether or not I have something to shop for.

13. State a random fact about yourself.
I hate it when everyone likes the things I like. That's probably why I don't quite like Spongebob and Twilight so much anymoe. I still love vampires though!

14.What does flying means to you?
Taking off and facing risks.

15.What do you crave for the most currently?
An ice blended mocha from Starbucks, some Famous Amos Chocolate Chip without Pecans and a call from my bestie who's away at NS now.

16.Describe the person that tagged you in 7 words.
Best friend during earlier years of secschool.

17.Are you currently single?
Yeah.

18.What is in your mind now?
Silence.

19. Beach or swimming pool?
Beach.

20.Who do you want to be 10 years later?
Someone who can afford to have a cup of Starbucks every single day by producing and playing music.

I tag : nobody. Busy munching on my Fitnesse cereal.


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Trip to Sentosa Beach on 30th Dec 2008
with some of fellow RYLA-rians

Standing(from left) :
Jerrard, Yang Zhi, Cai Ling, Picasso, Fiona, Sara, Vanessa, Wilma, Wen Li mei and Rachel
Frontmen : Farhan and Maurice

It always stays the same,
nothing ever changes.

-English Summer Rain, Placebo