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I hate it when people think something's going on when there isn't.
If there IS something going on I'll let you know thank you very much.

Also, try not to beat yourself up too much.
Lately I've developed a tendency to disagree and bring up questions that can go on all day.
Like recently when a classmate told me "I wanna die", I asked him "so what's stopping you?".
Never heard him say that ever again, at least not up till now.

People who are jerks sometimes upset me very easily now, so be cautious of what you do or say to me. I'll claw your brains out after I bite you, so beware.

Everything's changing now. People around, music, the weather, you name it. Let's just expect the worst and hope for the best shall we?


"Let's have a game on the Teddy Picker,
not quick enough can I have it quicker,
already thick and you're getting thicker."

What's been missing

The words he said when I was 5. Those weren't words but rather commands. Don't touch the dogs because they're dirty and don't sit too close to the telly.

The words he said when I was 7. Those were the times when even a muffled giggle would get me scolded till I was sobbing uncontrollably. That was when I learnt crying never helped, it only made the scoldings worse.

The words he said the day I turned 10. Those were the words that changed my eating habit. I used to take all the time in the world just to finish a meal, but since the day I turned 10 I was never the last to finish my meal ever again.

The words he said when I was 13. That was the payback I got for talking back and being rude. He confiscated my phone for that one and only time, and I ran into the bathroom and brawled my eyes out.

The words he said when I was 15. Those were the words I earned just by being involved in church and school. I guess he would have preferred to have a child who stays at home rather than one who needed to be fetched around all the time.

The words he said when I was 17. That was when I was questioned to a point where there was no other way to react than to react itself. Perhaps the uncertainty of me not having a place to further my studies was indeed a concern and not a nuisance for him.


Out of all the things above, I have finally realised what I've failed to realise all these years.

Take a wild guess, go on.




The things he'll never say.

Too much

When you're at a point of your life
where you forget everything
unless it's been written down,
it's either due to old age
or
you're biting off
more than you can chew.


"One loses their wisdom tooth when one bites off more than one can chew."


Too many things are on my mind.

Assignments/college work
Camp
Change
Farewells
Ways to cure my blocked nose
More time
The meaning of Love, Loyalty, Conflict, Companionship


I confuse my own mind.


Question;
How does one know when enough is enough?

Presentation tomorrow, wish me luck!

"Where were you while we were getting high?"
Oasis

It's out

This life, this war
Who are we fighting for
This run, this race
For whom is this chase


"Honesty is the first chapter in the book of wisdom."
Thomas Jefferson

"There is a wisdom of the head, and a wisdom of the heart."
Charles Dickens

"Because things are the way they are, they will not stay the way they are."
Bertolt Brecht


Happy Birthday Jack,
can we please be besties again?

Holding back

It isn't easy, not being able to express discomfort.
Shameful even, to show a sign of weakness.
But can't be helped now can it?

"Hush you bye, don't you cry."

Edge

What with everything happening around me so fast,
sometimes i wish I were a rug.
Why can't we just take a break and sip some wine?

Secret

My eyes trail where you left off.
You sniff my collar and your nose twitches.
There are no distractions while our thoughts meet.
All facades fall off like autumn leaves.
A slight smile touches the shape of your mouth.
We hold hands, not touching each other.
That's cause we hold hands with our heart.

Updates and a caption

Kiky the munchkin and I messing around during TDMC last Thursday.
Razzak the mammoth's headphones are da bomb!
The minute you put it on it's like everything outside is muted.
Me like. :D



Atiqa aka Iqa and I yesterday during SBS.
We were bored cause the class hadn't settled down after a change of class.
The hat's Jeff's.
Me like too. (:

I get really weird and sudden mood swings nowadays. And I eat a heap too. I think it's the travelling and assignments that are wearing me out. In any case, is it me or does it seem as though our class is getting a wee bit smaller by every lesson? Hm.



Caption time!
Haven't done this in a while.
Leave a comment if you have a caption for me?

Mine :
"Grr. Give me food else suffer my sudden outbursts!"

"I don't know if I can yell any louder."
-Please Don't Leave Me, Pink