Time consuming crap.

Layor 1 - On the Outside
Name: Sara Ong
Birthdate: 26th December 1991
Current Status: hee. one initial : M!
Eye Colour: brownish black
Hair Colour: brown

Layor 2 - On the Inside
My Heritage: erm.. abit of nonya-baba chinese? <---- ditto von.
My Fears: Things I dread happening
My Weaknesses: Too straightforward, am a coward
My Perfect Pizza: Beef pepperoni please!

Layor 3 - Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My First Thoughts Waking Up: man, and I just got into bed...
My Bedtime: when my eyelids are droopy
My Most Missed Memory: the time when everyone was around and about

Layor 4 - My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke!
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds'
Single or Group Dates: both
Addidas or Nike: just do it =D
Tea or Nestea: Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Choco
Cappucino or Coffee: both

Layor 5 - Do You...
Smoke: hell no
Curse: heh. only when i'm really angry
Take a Shower: only for everytime i feel dirty
Have A Crush: MMMMMMmmmmm
Go To School: ya
Want To Get Married: ask God xD
Believe In Yourself: kinda
Think You're A Health Freak: definitely NO

Layor 6 - In the Past
Gone to the Mall: just 6 hours ago
Been on Stage: loads of times
Eaten Sushi: sure! tastes real yummy
Dyed Your Hair: maybe after i finish sec school

Layor 7 - Have You Ever....
Played a Stripping Game: ewww
Changed Who You Were to Fit In: hasn't everyone?

Layor 8 - Age You're Hoping to...
Get Married: when i'm ready, and when He has already planned out for me

Layor 9 - In a Guy
Best Eye Colour: i didn't know it mattered
Best Hair Colour: not dyed blonde, anything but that
Short or Long Hair: i like it a little on the spike-able side

Layor 10 - What Were You Doing..
A Minute ago: scratching my nose
An Hour ago: fumbling with my phone
Four and a Half Hours ago: bathing
A Month ago: preparing for camp and competitions
A Year ago: counting down the days to my birthday

Layor 11 - Finish the Sentences
I love: it that I'm who I am
I feel: sick and tired out
I hate: being fat
I hide: to avoid trouble
I miss: eating at mamak stalls late at night after youth meetings
I need: understanding people around me

Layor 12 - Tag 4 People
erm. dang it.
wendy, agnes, tracy, siweiWEI =D

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Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
one she most liked to imagine :

What is the last thing you watched on TV?
fullhouse

Without looking, guess what time it is:11.42pm?

Now look at the clock.

What is the actual time?
11.40pm

With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
myself blowing my nose

When did you last step outside?
6 hours ago. just came back from school.

Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
siwei's blog

What are you wearing?
spaghetti top with shorts

Did you dream last night?
yeah but i can't remember what about

When did you last laugh?
the evening

What are on the walls you are in?
the question doesn't make sense.

Seen anything weird lately?
can't think of anything.

What do you think of this quiz?
like all the others, they're all time consuming.

What is the last film you saw?
the wedding date, nice one.

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
a porche and a house and an amplifier.

If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I would change nothing.

Do you like to dance?
kinda. with the right people.

???:has a funny name.

Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Isabel

Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Ryan


Would you ever consider living abroad?
i would like to try.

What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Be with me all the way, even if I have my doubts I know you'll be there.

I tag:
no one. it's really time consuming to have completed both.
a huge headache creeps unto me.

After all.

Do we kids nowadays look like we're made of steel or something?
Because it's not only us pushing ourselves anymore, it's the parents and the adults and all the others.
And the catch is, after we get an earful or so, they seem to go right back to normal.
Talking as though nothing just happened, as though they didn't just make a day feel so much more tiring than we already are.


It just isn't right.
I don't get it.
What makes you think I'm not giving everything my best shot?
Can't you tell that I'm already tiring myself out?
Can't you tell that even a simple hug now could mean the whole world to me?
Can't you tell that I hate landing myself in this shit I'm currently in?



Help help, somebody come save me.
I know I need help. I just need to get away from everything for a while.
Just a while would do. Just a short while. Stay with me, will you?

What was that?

*cue for coldplay's ever-consoling song, 'fix you'.*
When tears come streaming down your face, stuck in reverse.
*the music plays on.*





When everything felt so wrong.
When everything felt so cold.
When you couldn't seem to find solace in anything, nothing, except solitude.
When you shut everything out, every little thing in your life.
That's when they'll appear.
After eating you from the inside for so long, they'd come up to the surface.
And that will be the time when you'll drown.
In a whirlpool of shadows, in a wide sky full of nothing but darkness.




And that was when the dream ended.

Look, don't see.

None of us has ever liked being caught between two or more choices.

Well, I bet more than half of us think that way most of the time.




Remember the time when you wanted to use the bathroom but you woke up earlier just to find it being occupied by another family member?
Or like when you had your exams, unfortunately, fall on a friend's birthday bash?
How about the time when your holidays were totally taken by various activities that demanded your utmost attention all at the same time, all cramped into two supposedly relaxingmonstrous weeks of chaos?




Am tired. Really, I am.
And the recent mood swings haven't been much of a help either.
Just wait till I get my hands on something to vent my frustration at, and even I don't know how much hurt I'd be capable of inflicting onto that something or even worse, that someone.




Pray. Just pray that it won't be you.
Because things are going to get pretty ugly from now on.

Everytime.

T'was the way I stared at the hands of a clock, counting away the seconds of my day.
T'was the way I crept into bed, thinking of what to do for the next sleepless night.
T'was the way I screamed inside my mind, waiting for that one thing to happen to make me feel better.

It is because of the way I know you'll be there for me, even when I'm at my worst moments or when you think you're standing alone with the whole world against you, the way you know I'll be right there to break your fall.

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When dark clouds gather, would you run for shelter or would you rather stay and get highsoaked with me?

When the sun's blazing hot, would you run for shelter or would you rather go get an umbrella and go for a walk with me?

When the wind's blistering cold, would you run for shelter or would you rather grab a coat and share it with me?

When twisters form, would you run for shelter or would you rather hold me tight and go through hell with me?

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Don't look down. I promise I'll catch you if you fall.
I'll never let you go if you promise not to fade away.