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Hello all.

Finally done with every single one of them trial papers. It's been exactly 26 days since I last blogged and I sure as hell have a lot suppressed in me. Feels awesome to be able to take a breather after what seemed like an eternity(it's merely been a little less than three weeks). But even after all the anxiety, last minute studies, 'freaking out', false fronts, high expectations and soon to come disappointments/satisfaction, it's good to know that this coming one-week-long holiday would definitely give all of us a huge boost to strive harder as time ticks away like nobody's business.

Here are a few difficulties I went through since the day of my last post.

1. I'm a lazy person. A very very lazy person. I procrastinate, I wait till the last minute, and then the 'freaking out' begins.[Note : Freaking out for me is all words and no actions, I'm just not the type who picks up a book to revise at the last minute.]
2. The tips that were spreading around was really affecting me. I'm sure every one of you appreciate and welcome tips, especially tips for those major examinations that are paid more attention to such as the trials examination we've just barely braved through. I welcome them too, but sometimes I just feel it's just not fair towards all the other people who never got tipped off about the paper. Besides, for those who are growing dependent on tips, what're you going to do when there aren't any tips for you anymore?
3. As for those who cheated during the papers, you know who you are and you probably didn't know that several of us know it damn well too. We're not blind, we just act oblivious. You should really stop all this cause we've been shielding you people for far too many times now.
4. I set my alarm for 3am, but my dog Cino wakes me up at 2.09am and keeps me up. Thank God for awesome friends like Mercy who rang me up at 3 in the morning just to run through our Accounts syllabus and ask each other questions we couldn't answer the other because we're taught differently by two abnormally mad very different teachers.
5. I had a misunderstanding with someone and I was deeply troubled with it. By this, I wasted quite a lot of time brooding over nothing.
6. Being one who loves to think about everything and anything, I wondered about things like : "What if I run out of pen ink/test pad?" "What if I wake up late and didn't go to school for my paper?" "Why couldn't it have rained today?" "Why people started relationships young?" "How do people really trust each other?" "Why do people lie and put up a false front?" "Why I can't seem to get my head to remember details of History for my paper?" "Is that person being a hypocrite because of me?" "Can someone please explain the periodic table to me?" "How come you get to make the decisions and I get no say at all?" "Why do people smile when they are crying out on the inside?" "Why do my nails grow so fast?".
7. I deprived myself of my music drugs. People, I'm talking about me not getting on the computer for my daily dose of songs as much as I always do. That was real pain I tell you.
8. I don't like noises not made or started by me, that I will admit.
9. I missed a couple of lunches on Fridays with a few friends who always helped start off my weekend with a blast. I didn't even go out as often as I used to anymore(probably also due to the fact that there wasn't anyone to go out and hang with).
10. I had to resist the temptation of reading the novels and books I have at home again. After only about 6 times.

So there you go. Just some stuff that I could/would have blogged and ranted about.




On the other hand, I'm going to be random for a moment.


"You said we could be friends, but we're no where like how we used to be."
"You came back, had your fun, then went away again."
"You were my buddy, but we don't even talk anymore."
"You got busy with your own world, and by that you stepped out of mine."
"You are lost, and still not found."
"You make promises and put them in a bottle, then you empty it when the bottle has been filled like it never mattered."
"You wanted that, but this is all I can offer."
"You gave a reason, an absurdly unreasonable one."
"You start a fire, and time feeds it gasoline."
"You don't get it sometimes, and sometimes I can't make you get it either."
"You might be gone, but you're still around somehow."



Burnt out,
physically cause I went out with the people who bring fun to a whole new level;
and
mentally cause of them muggings.



My heartfelt thanks to the people I hung with today =D :
MercytheCaramelBabe, you're always there when I need fun. I'm sorry if I dragged you to anywhere you didn't want to go(KL for youknowwhat) or to do anything you didn't want to. I'll write you an essay really really soon.
SerahtheCuteTwin, I'm sorry if I made you cry. Your facial expressions are totally classics, every single one of them. Will write you essay if you want me to too.
MelanietheOneWhoTreatsMeLikeAPillow, I know you totally LOVE my shoulder, I know you miss me sharing a bus with you, I know you miss hitting on me(my shoulder to be exact lol). Hold on to your sanity, you'll be one of the brighest supernovas yet. Will write essay if you want me to too.
SiWeitheBlurWoman, we've known each other for a while and even though we don't hang out much together, we share more happy memories than those unmemorable ones. I'd love to spend more time with you, for you have been one great friend to have. If you want an essay too, you know what to do.
AdelineYaptheBunsGirl, although we only shared a bus ride today, you're always having those silly moments with Mercy and you guys really do make me laugh my head off. We've gone through this year along with CallyWallyPally and SarahWongmyOtherTwin, finally we've finished our job. Loved working with you and all the jokes and talks we had. Essay?